So... Tired... Can't... Move...

Today was very satisfying, but so tiring... my legs... my back... muscles... can't... move... Jason had fencing, I was running around a bit and then had a choir concert... then more moving around and some confusion and dinner... getting some papers in order with my mom, seeing her off, and then finally some alone time with Jason. And what did we do?

Lay (yes, the passive voice) on my bed for a while, gave each other a nice massage, collapsed again, said "happy six months" and lay around for a little while longer before getting up to walk (quite protestingly) to the little store thing to get water and nibbles. Then we said goodnight and here I am, passing that sentiment along...

Goodnight :)

Pure Gold!

A screenshot that I just took from msnbc.com... not kidding! Nor did I change anything in it... click the image for full effect.

Singing... and Reading...

Three hours of singing, in fact. Before that I'll be reading and working on my essay and after that I'll be on a little trip to the library of the nearby posh private college (we have access to their library!) to look up some good books on medieval Spain, take copious notes and copies, and then return home. And maybe I can look for one good literary article on feminism in The Decameron at the MU library if I have time.

I Did Accomplish Something...

Changed the timestamp to reflect my time zone, finally ;)

Friday

Today was a pretty unexciting day, considering how Fridays usually are. I went through some more of The Decameron, marking pages that I can use in my essay, spent a good portion of time updating my resume and making it look pretty (job interview in library archives and special collections next Friday!) and had some procrastinating/relaxing time.

Now I'm just about ready for bed...

DANGER!!!

me: I was just about to leave
jason: be careful
me: what, do I have to step over some broken bodies?
jason: they're playing brittany spears out there
me: I'll take that as a yes

Irony

Actual News Post

Well... back on Monday starting around noon I was really starting to feel like I had some stomach bug, plus I was starting to get dizzy from, I presumed, one of the medications that I am taking. Yesterday it got worse after I had a light breakfast so I gave up and just went to Health Services. My pulse and blood pressure were pretty high. The nurse ended up calling the doctor in, and then I started shaking like I had the chills, but I didn't have a fever at all. He said that I should just go to the ER so they could do a full blood count, so I did, and that's where I spent most of my day. Basically, what I presumed was correct... side effects plus a stomach bug equal an unhappy Carla. I am feeling better today, at least.

Speaking of today, it was the Day of Silence here at Millersville. I can't believe it, but this was the first year that they've done it here! I was proud to participate and didn't personally get any trouble... actually, some of my classmates made a point of saying something supportive to me.

Warning: Not an Actual News Post!

List your top ten most listened to bands according to last.fm:

1. Rammstein
2. Porcupine Tree
3. Nightwish
4. Opeth*
5. Pink Floyd
6. The Libertines
7. Dio
8. Static-X
9. Marilyn Manson
10. Garbage

*note: Opeth has less songs, but they're longer!

-- what was the first song you ever heard by 6?
"Radio America"

-- what is your favourite album of 2?
"In Absentia"

-- what is your favourite lyric that 5 has sung?
"How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here."

-- how many times have you seen 4 live?
Two :D

-- what is your favourite song by 7?
"Last in Line"

-- what is a good memory you have considering the music of 10?
Playing some songs by them for my boyfriend.

-- is there a song of 3 that makes you sad?
"Nemo"

-- what is your favourite lyric that 2 has sung?
"I won't shiver in the cold
I won't let the shadows take their toll
I won't cover my head in the dark
And I won't forget you when we part…"

-- what is your favourite song by 9?
"The Reflecting God"

-- how did you get in to 3?
Brandon’s just a little bit obsessed with them…

-- what was the first song you heard by 1?
"Du Hast"

-- what is your favourite song by 4?
Oh sure, make me choose one… Well ok… "To Bid You Farewell"…and "Demon of the Fall"

-- how many time have you seen 9 live?
None.

-- what is a good memory you have concerning 2?
When I think about who introduced me to them, I just get sad.

-- is there a song of 8 that makes you sad?
"Invincible"

-- what is your favourite album of 5?
"Wish You Were Here"

-- what is your favourite lyric that 4 has sung?
"Into the trees
Past meadow grounds
And further away from my home
Baying behind me
I hear the hounds
Flocks chasing to find me alone"

-- what is your favourite song of 1?
"Nebel"

-- what is your favourite song of 10?
"#1 Crush"

-- how many times have you seen 8 live?
None…

-- what is your favourite album of 1?
"Reise, Reise"

Hah! Damned Spot, I Have You Now xD

So, last Monday, as some of you may recall, I saw that beautiful white falcon for the first time and wished that I had a camera. Yesterday evening my boyfriend and I saw it again, so at least he got to see it... but I still didn't get back with a camera in time. This morning, however, I saw it on my way back to breakfast and immediately turned around and went to get a camera from the Snapper offices. This time, it was around when I got back, and I spent the next ten minutes following it from tree to tree around the quad. I should have gotten the wide-angle camera, but the small silver one was the closest and quickest to get. I also took some photos of campus while I was at it, and a few of my pant legs and feet... stupid dew. I've named the falcon Damned Spot, for obvious reasons.

Falcon Tail ;)

It was kind of tucking its head under... camera shy?

A pretty good shot... click to enlarge. I know it's a little blurry :/

It was looking over its shoulder at me xD

That's the sign of a true photographer, right there :P

Not Sure...

Meh... started feeling kind of bad around noon, not sure if it's from meds or some bug or maybe just that I missed my lunchtime dose (well, I don't think that's it). Mostly swimmy, upset stomach... hope I can get food down at dinner.

xD

"She has two different sorts of mood... One day she is all smiles and happiness. . .Then, another day, there'll be no living with her. . .she flies into a rage. . ."

--Semonides, 6th c. BC

After the Rain

Water droplets shining on the clovers.

The beautiful green lawn and some trees.

Purrr...

Me, better rested and rather pleased with myself. Blurriness still included. I am always a bit amphorous; slightly undefined...

Yay for Sam!

"G'night. Pleasant dreams of bunnies and flowers! Only in black and white with Opeth playing in the background."

Maybe Five Hours

This is what I look like with maybe five hours of sleep the night before... on a rainy day... with the majority of my time spent trying to make progress on an essay. Blurriness included.

Eco

"I am young, my love, I am just born."

Correction:

There is only one thing I am truly afraid of, and that is finding Jason lying on his bed like that ever again.

"Quizá no pueda respirar más/Sin respirarte a ti..."

Thoughts from Yesterday

And when I thought my day couldn't get any worse, it did... puta... it's time for karma to shift. Now.

I have Jason. I win.

Dr. Fortin got a little too excited about showing us a painting of hell, if you ask me...

"And loook over there, see the little pointy white hat? That's a bishop! And over there is a guy with a crown, so this painting got a little political... Ooh, and at the bottom there's a big cat and this funky monster things..."


WE DON'T NEED NO WATER LET THE MOTHERFUCKER BURN,BURN MOTHERFUCKER, BURN.

Birds

I love the sound that raven's wings make when they fly past... not like in 'The Birds,' but just a nice fwooshy sound :)

True!

"A study conducted by UCLA's Department of Psychiatry has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds attractive on a man can differ depending on where she is in her menstrual cycle. For example: If she is ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and masculine features. However, if she is menstruating, or menopausal, she tends to prefer a man with scissors lodged in his temple while he is on fire. Further studies in this area have been cancelled."

Headaches

I don't think it's a good thing that I woke up this morning with a splitting headache coming from the left side of my head...

Who Knew?

I have passed test, and I am now deemed worthy to be known as a ... ... Sorceress. In the war between good and evil, Sorceresss take the side of the noble and good.I am gifted with the elemental plane of Water.


A Sorceress creates magic the way a poet creates poems, with inborn talent honed by practice. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Some Sorceress' claim that the blood of dragons courses through their veins. It may even be true-- it is common knowledge that certain powerful dragons can take humanoid form and even have humanoid lovers, and it's difficult to prove that a given a Sorceress does not have a dragon ancestor. A Sorceress often has striking good looks, usually with a touch of the exotic that hints at an unusual heritage. Still, the claim that a Sorceress is partially draconic is either an unsubstantiated boast on the part of a certain Sorceress or envious gossip on the part of those who lack the Sorceress's gift.


You are attuned to the elemental plane of water. You may find yourself often drawn to places where your given element can be found in abundance, such as lakes, rivers, oceans, or sometimes even swamps. As part of your powers, you may move through your element freely, being able to swim to the deepest depths, and breathe under the waves. Some mages of the plane of water have been known to build great fortresses under the waves. Ever heard of Atlantis? Yep, that was definitely built by a water mage. It is well within your powers, to cause a tsunami, a storm of ice shards, or to cause a person unprotected by magic to spontaneously drown.

Find out what kind of Wizard/Wizardess you are at WizardSoul.com

I Wish I Had a Camera...

Sometimes it's just one of those things... I see something so breathtaking, so perfect, but I can't capture it because I don't have a camera with me...

This morning, walking back to my dorm, a white falcon swooped across the path and then perched comfortably on a large tree on the other side of the path. It just sat there as I stopped to look up at it. The sad thing is, no one else seemed to notice it.

Also Fun!

Tee ^_^*

Your Quirk Factor: 76%

You're so quirky, it's hard for you to tell the difference between quirky and normal. No doubt about it, there's little about you that's "normal" or "average."

How Quirky Are You?

Manual Restart

Here are the lyrics I mentioned writing for a friend of mine. They don't scare me anymore...

I'll find a button to push
A vein to break
Manual restart

I'm so tired of this world
There's nothing I can do
Except turn myself off
And restart.

I'll find a cord to pull
A cord to hang
Manual restart...

I'm so tired of this world
There's nothing I can do
Except turn myself off
And restart.

I'll find a fuse to blow
Blow through my head
Manual restart...

I'm so tired of this world
There's nothing I can do
Except turn myself off
And restart.

I'm so tired of this world
So I turn myself off
And restart.

Morning

It's going to be a hot one today...

My Jason is sick, the poor dear :( We're going to the Health Center, therefore, and then I at least will eat breakfast. Then it will be laundry time and caring for Jason.

Catch More With Honey...?

BENTON, Tenn., April 14 : Authorities put out traps baited with honey buns and doughnuts Friday in hopes of capturing a potentially crazed black bear that killed a 6-year-old girl and mauled her mother and 2-year-old brother.


Hey, I would totally go for it ;)

I know, I know, I haven't written anything that's news or my own writing lately. Sorry! I'm just so tired... I just took my evening beta-blocker, so now I'm going to get to bed before that knocks me out. Today I've started feeling a few side effects from the meds but nothing too bad. We'll see.

Carla is Sad...

The Hunt is On.

Tom Cruise Not Crazy!

On Brangelina's impending (and competing) arrival: "Playdates! I've gotta give him a ring. I'm really happy for them. I am really happy for them. He's a good guy, Brad." (Said the still in-utero Jolie-Pitt offspring of the playdate invitation, "Thanks, but no thanks.")

On explaining the history of psychiatry to Matt Lauer: "I thought I was pretty restrained. I've been pissed off about things, believe me. I thought it was a terrific interview. I wasn't pissed; I just was intense on wanting to communicate."

On Katie's cravings: "She loves cupcakes, okay? I mean, the girl loves cupcakes."

On his hands-on approach to detox: "I have to say, I've always found the 'if it makes me feel better, it's okay' rationale a little suspect. I think it's appalling that people have to live a life of drug addiction when I have personally helped people get off drugs." Cruise claims he can get a person off heroin in three days.

On whether he told ex-wife Nicole Kidman, with whom he has two children, about the pregnancy: "It's not like anything I had to or didn't have to do. I wish her well."

On Katie's at-home pregnancy test: "Yeah, she did the whole stick test; I think she just touched the box and they all turned blue."

On commitment: "I'm the relationship guy. I'm not the dating, partying guy. It's not me, you know what I mean? I'm too serious. And I'm too intense. It means something to me."

On questions about the galactic overlord Xenu, a central figure in his religion: "You say this stuff to me and it's insulting. That's why I'm not even going to dignify what you're saying. There's always a lot of misinformation out there. I'm doing pretty good. Look at the things that have helped me in my life. You hear this other stuff -- come on, it's crap!"

Me in 30 Years?

Me: I worry :P
Benjamin: I know, it's kinda cute
Benjamin: I imagine you with a furrowed brow looking over half-rimmed glasses, wearing a cardigan, working in a library in later life :P but that's besides the point
.
.
.
Me: SHHH!!! YOU'LL WAKE THE BOOKS UP!!!!

Drugs and Other Fun Things (Not)

So, I definitely do have Hyperthyroid. The endocrinologist gave us two precriptions, which we got filled before heading back to Millersville. I'm taking PTU (two pills with every meal, every day...) and a Atenolol (a beta inhibitor) once before bed to keep my pulse at a normal pace. Apparently the big danger with hyperthyroid is heart arrhythmia.

I'm not used to taking drugs regularly, especially ones that can have side effects... but I think I'll be ok (:

Under Construction!

Yeah, this is the only post I'll be making from home this time...

I still have a little work to do on my template but I have the html figured out, I think. Pardon the appearance until, say, Thursday.

Tomorrow morning I get up at 5:30 and come up to the computer to get all ready for class registration. Then a doctor's appointment at noon, and then back to Millersville.

Comments!

Ok, comment function is now working... all I have to do now is figure out how to make the titles show up...

Opeth Again...

Because I was bored, I attempted to answer this thingie using all Opeth songs. I succeeded.

Your Life: The Soundtrack
Opening credits:	Opeth- Prologue
Waking up:	Opeth- Dirge for November
Average day:	Opeth- Benighted
First date:	Opeth- Deliverance
Falling in love:	Opeth- In My Time of Need
Love scene:	Opeth- Closure
Fight scene:	Opeth- Ghost of Perdition
Breaking up:	Opeth- Isolation Years
Getting back together:	Opeth- Face of Melinda
Secret love:	Opeth- Black Rose Immortal
Life's okay:	Opeth- Atonement
Mental breakdown:	Opeth- Blackwater Park
Driving:	Opeth- Baying of the Hounds
Learning a lesson:	Opeth- To Rid the Disease
Deep thought:	Opeth- Wreath
Flashback:	Opeth- Moonlapse Vertigo
Partying:	Opeth- Demon of the Fall
Happy dance:	Opeth- The Grand Conjuration
Regreting:	Opeth- To Bid You Farewell
Long night alone:	Opeth- White Cluster
Death scene:	Opeth- Funeral Portrait
Closing credits:	Opeth- Epilogue
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Mutterings

Free association:

1. Glass castle:: Rocks
   
2. Preserved:: Glass
   
3. Jealousy:: Hide
   
4. Territory:: Mine
   
5. Coffee:: Milk
   
6. Stephen:: Beautiful
   
7. Slut:: Heels
   
8. Dynamic:: Markings
   
9. Daybreak:: Mist
   
10. Dew:: Wash
    

Go Me...

Well, talk about coincidences... or just my awesome, Opeth-obsessed sub-concious... I happened to be listening to Blackwater Park this morning. As the second song, 'Bleak,' began, for some reason the lyrics that go with the picture decorating my blog ran through my head, so I sort of half-heartedly clicked on the link to my blog without even really meaning to and as I looked at the lyrics, I suddenly heard them as I was reading them... it was kind of cool really, but a little freaky... maybe I know Opeth too well?

Notes

Ok, still trying to work out a few bugs. Making comments and posting titles show up is a wee bit beyond me. I'd settle for just comments, maybe? It may be a week or so... my html fairy is working on a speech ;)

New Love

I have found a new love!

All in All...

... a quite satisfying day.

I got my friend to help me with my new blog skin (just in case you hadn't notcied), pretty sparklies at the mall, and had a very nice dinner. The best part? All of that time was spent with Jason (:

Now I really will go to bed.

Things on my Mind

1. To someone: I always feel so gratified when I can make you smile or laugh, even if you don't really mean it. I miss hearing you laugh.

2. To someone else: If I ever see you on campus again, I will smile. I hope you will realize how much it costs me to do that and I hope you will appreciate it.

3. To 1, 026 people: Fuck you.

666... Two Things for Jason

"There's nothing I can do..."

Feeling bad about myself. Not sure why.

Reflections and Plottings

*twitch* Elftown is still down... *twitch*

Hopefully this weekend I'll be putting up a new blog layout once my friend Sam helps me edit the last few html details, which is why I haven't bothered to put some links back up again. I'll also hopefully be going to the mall to get some pretty sparkly jewelry to go with my lovely new frormal black dress for the Chorale recital on April 30th. Yay!

I took some photos of my dreamcatcher, which just got in yesterday, hanging in my room. Here are two good images:



Also, I think I'm beginning to develop some ideas for birthday gifts for my boyfriend (:

Morning, It Is.

Fell asleep after midnight, I did.

Feel like moving, I don't.

Emo... ness.

"You know she's bleeding somewhere inside..."

Muahaha...

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh. You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum. Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Pretty

"I feel in my heart a certain sorrow,
Which goes on disturbing my peace.
There shines a torch in my soul:
If it is not love, it will soon be love."

Stupid Time Change

Well, I'm obviously not in New York right now. Why is that, you ask? Well, because I set my clock BACK an hour instead of FORWARD an hour, so when I woke up at 5, it was actually 7, which is when the group left Millersville.

Once I finally figured out what time it really was, I just gave up and got a nice long shower instead.

Night!

I had a nice evening. Tomorrow, New York City with the Spanish club (:

Happy April 1st

"Bring me a basket of figs and some mice."